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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Grad School app process YAY! Finally following my dream!

Allison Lang Buechner AWESOME officially started process of applying for grad school thanks Amy! Im soo ecstatic as this has been my dream since grad in 00 & I never did went Its the best feeling no matter when I get in & NO GRE 1 nite/wk mostly for 2yrs Spent rest of day sanding drips on furniture & we finished painting finally just lacquering left

In response to friend on opposite side of bill who is upset for being yelled at

RESPONSE:
This seems 2 be destroying you & causing you too much stress than its worth & it breaks my heart 2 hear that from you. I have just as many reasons I believe my way as people do on the other side - that doesnt make either one of us stupid, idiots or ignorant - we are all soo different & gone through so many dif’t things in life that have affected what we believe that there is NO way we could all believe the same thing ALL the time & if we did that would be creepy & it wouldnt be a democracy and we don’t want to turn into “A Brave New World”. Just like some people can't wait 2 get married because thats been their entire life dream but others are adamantly opposed 2 EVER getting married period or ever having kids period- we all have different beliefs on ALOT of things and we have the right to believe in any of those and to feel safe for having those beliefs.

I know I keep saying that but I just want you 2 know you arent the only one feeling that way - the only things I have seen posted recently is how big of an idiot I am for my beliefs & that really, really, really hurts because I am not an idiot, I have the right 2 make informed decisions on my own as does everyone. So when people quit posting those types of articles I think things & people can get back 2 normal & not feel soo horribly persecuted on both sides.

In the past year of having 2 tell hundreds of people that their specialty meds werent covered because of preexisting cond’s, esp cancer patients - it broke my heart & made me want 2 yell at them 2 NOT put anything under the listing of previous illness or previous meds on their application because they had 2 wait a year till they could get those paid for. When you are talking over $5000/mo for a second line breast cancer med because its metastasized 2 her spine & they have 2 pay for that for the 1st year on top of the numerous meds she has 2 take - IT KILLED ME. It made me feel like I was killing her myself because who can afford that on their own yet she will die if she doesnt get that med. So for that change I am very grateful!

Hell I've been fighting my short term disability since OCTOBER for so many reasons for denial & now its preexisting conditions when it has nothing 2 do with anything previous & their first denial was for work comp... so there are alot of things I am REALLY excited about in this change. I love the fact that Obama lowered my COBRA payments or we wouldnt survive right now while I am looking for a job because I have a lot of Drs and a lot of meds so I couldn’t not keep my COBRA.

But me, myself, will never be able 2 believe that the government taking over more things is better. The more govt takes over the less decisions we have as Americans – but that’s what I believe & I would hate for people 2 keep giving in & support the government 2 pay for this or that & before we know it they are deciding most of our lives – that’s my one irk about it. 2 me we are supposed 2 be free & hate 2 have anything that limits our choice in any way. But this is my belief because of who I am & what I have gone through, who I’ve known, whom I’ve met, things I have seen, my education & upbringing.

After living in Mexico & seeing how much the government controls everything there – having the government have any more control here just plain scares me… but those are all things that have formed my opinion. Just like your life has affected your beliefs & neither of us is wrong or right – we just have that right 2 belief what we want & my beliefs are changing everyday the more I live life, & I will get upset when I strongly believe something because there are many things I do believe strongly in. But I am not in gov’t & cant make those decisions, all I can do is vote & let my legislators know what I believe. So when things pass I disagree on I get upset but realize I have 2 deal with whatever is coming my way whether I like it or not. I may think how can anybody believe in this, but then I realize how can there not be we are a FREE country, period! *end of novel* :-)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

PEEK-A-POO MESS

Our dog is a Peek-a-poo and it seriously drives me nuts because her hair matts soo bad because her hair is partially curly partially straight and she doesnt want anyone brushing her or cutting those matts out.. but I hate sending her to get groomed with all those matts because she isnt their beloved dog and might not be so gentle.

blog 3/23/10 unemployment test DONE!

So I FINALLY finished my unemployment testing What shoulda been a 7.5hr test I did in under 4 as I found out it had to be done by 5 or I had to do even more work but I passed There was actually alot of good stuff in there & I thought I was the queen of looking for a job.. I cant believe I didnt know it was due today!  What a day!

Started my BLOGGER & LOVING it Get 2 say what I want & noone has 2 read it so noone can get mad if they don't agree w/me or hurt their feelings cuz I luv all & hate 2 hurt anyone A diary where I can unload my brain Maybe Ill shut up now that I can get these thoughts out Im gonna finally take a nice long bath, you know ...how i live by my baths, make spaghetti & watch The Blind Side cuz he never got to see it

 

EEEK!!!

So I have today to finish my unemployment tests... just figured that out and they are 7 1/2 hrs so I better get going or I lose my benefits.. eeeek! Wish me luck!
So today I have alot to do... way overwhelming but I started the morning with a burst of energy.  Decided to start doing sketched os what I would do to this house if we buy it... thought it would be fun and give us an idea of how much we would need to make those renovations... most seem easy enough!


Need to call SNU about getting into grad school. Need to start my 7 1/2 hrs of tests I have to do for unemployment since I missed ONE question on the tests I took - which were soo simple like give the directions from the office to the warehouse... seriously how could I miiss one- probably rushed it since I thought it was so easy and hit the wrong button. ARGHH!


Finished taking all my pics of my machines last night and can start photoshopping them and putting them out for sale. probably wont make but 30-50 per machine but I have a few dozen. Have to finish that ASAP as I want all these credit card machines and paper roll boxes out of this house for good!


Laundry is almost finished - after like 13 loads since we had to becareful since the dryer vents to the garage and all the painted furniture is in there.  I did so many loads yesterday and hung and folded I was dying by the time time Scott got home.  I was actually ironing a sheet when Scott got home I had noo idea it was 5 already.  Told him I thought it'd be easier to iron the scrunched sheet than rewash it - afterwards I totally disagreed as we have 20 inch deep king size sheets - it wasnt fun.  We need the bigass ironing board ASAP!


Came to bed at about 1am to the previous blog of Scott sound asleep and felt bad. Decided to stop my working I wanted to finish and just go to bed.  Which is a constant battle of my cat Sophie ALWAYS coming to bed next to me and Daisy figuring it out and pouncing at her having Sophie jump off and run, only to repeat the process over and over again.  We must get Daisy trained to ignore the cats ASAP because they dont understand that she just wants to play and it just scares the shit out of them.  We did put a baby gate up so only the cats can go under it into the cat room so they have a safe haven away from Daisy and they love that.  It is going to be my craft room as well as soon as we bring the cabinets in from the garage.


Right now our ENTIRE house is stuffed boxes stacked all over the house like worse than when we moved in.  Its all organized but just waiting to bring the furniture in the house.  We cant do that until we finish the touch up paint this week and then lacquer the tops so they dont get ruined.  They are too valuable to not lacquer the tops at least - I would prefer lacquering the entire outsides but we cant afford to rent the machine again!  But its getting really old having to move shit all the time to get anywhere in our house or to just get out of bed.  Between the credit card machines and the boxes I am going crazy in here.  Not having a job to escape to makes it worse.


It was so funny yesterday because I already got out the stuff for spaghetti and Scott came home with dinner... too cute!


Well hope the day goes well and I get a bunch done! later, ally :-)

Bedtime last night...too funny

hubby is sound asleep in his clothes and glasses still on, the fan
light on, the lamp on, the TV on loud and everything on in the house,
including me typing next to him and he doesnt even notice! Now where is
my camera this is hysterical... he hasnt moved in a few hours.

RESPONSE: ya he is so gonna kill me when he reads his facebook tomorrow...hehehe this was just too funny because he slept through EVERYTHING!!
 
RESPONSE: I'm seriously thinking what I can do... our dog has barked like crazy has laid on top of him waiting for him to play with her and he just lays there with his mouth open... but I cant be too evil because I know he would get me back tenfold! He finally rolled over and has his hands clasped on his chest... I soo wish I had the balls to do something but he really does need his sleep so I would feel bad.
 
RESPONSE: thats exactly what I did, I VERY gently removed his glasses which is easy since he only has one side because we cant afford new glasses sadly, moved his phone pulled the bedspread out from under his feet and covered him up... he is out completely! its actually really sweet he looks like this little kid that is just zonked from playing too much! ... See MoreThe good thing is he isnt wheezing or snoring for the first time in forever because hes been sick for so long and his asthma is bad at night... that makes me happy and thats probably why he is sleeping so well
 
 

 

Bed Info

So a friend posted about needing a new bed so here is my response:

Lady Americana Elite at Mathis Brothers and Factory Direct - ours is HUGE so it literally takes a step for me to get into bed (we shoulda gotten the low profile boxspring) but it is like awwww ...
The Elite model  top part is 15 inches tall, with 5 inches of that a memory foam box top. We got the 10 inch box spring & it is 10 inches off the ground because our bed is soo tall. So definitely go with the low profile box spring if your bed is tall, but our bed looks really kickass because its this big. 
You walk in our room like wow thats one cool, comfy bed. Sometimes too comfy because you dont want to leave it when you wake up. 
I had my back surgery so I had to get something supportive enough yet comfy enough to keep me out of pain, at least minimize it as much as possible.  We were going with the complete memory foam but that was too hot and too firm and weird so this was a great combo!
My parents have the Sleep Number and they like it but Scott and I HATE it - it is soo uncomfortable no matter the setting. 
We did end up spending alot but there are soo many different models that are very similar maybe less memory foam or less spiffy  but cheaper that are just as comfy - we just had the money at the time and had just had my back surgery so we went with the top. Hope my ramblings helped.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Wow more politcal words of wisdom about the healthcare reform...

Yes but you dont realize the consequences of letting the government making your healthcare decisions... like not letting you in the hosital when you need to or get the medicine you need because its not on the approved list... I dealt with a healthcare district run by the government and it was horrible - you DONT want that - you will have no decision in your care and if you even think insurance companies are bad the governement way is worse. Good luck getting to see see a dr for a sinus infection,etc... I have way beyond $30,000 in medical bils and I have insurance and have people calling me constantly to get that money. They cant make you pay if it is a public hospital. Also, if you call the hospital will work with you if you are in need. I am finally getting around to that and filling out papers to get my debt forgiven.


Just because youll have coverage doesnt mean its the miracle you think it is... it too will have major consequences as NOTHING is ever that easy! THere has to be something better they could have come up with after working in the insurance business for over 3 years there are soo many ways to reform it without the government running anything.
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I hate seeing our government start to become a socialist or communist state where they start taking over everything and telling us what we can and cant do in most areas of our lives.. Look how many things our government has started takeing over in th past few years - that should scare EVERYONE this is supposed to be a free country not one that takes over everything.

More political comments, weird...

My friends comments:
is amazed by how many people have forgotten that a lot of the people they keep referring to as idiots and as stupid are actually friends of theirs who support the change taking place in this country. Trust me, I'm just as informed, well read and educated, if not more so, than you think you are.I'be been trying hard not to talk about it because I realize not everyone is happy about what is taking place and I don't want to hurt feelings but I am sick of being insulted at this point. There are a lot of things that took place during the last administration I didn't support but I didn't refer to the my friends who did agree in s derogatory manner.

My response:
but ya did have a heart attack when you saw my BUSH sticker the very first time... hehehe that was soo funny! But ya still loved me and thats what counts... we are this awesome free country where we can all have our own beliefs without being persecuted or killed, so no matter the disagreement in beliefs - its those differences that make our country such a great country. I am so proud to be an American no matter what I agree or disagree with because I can live this great FREE life and that is all that matters at the end of the day!

We are so lucky and sometimes I have to sit back and realize that even though I may strongly believe in something or against something their is gonna be someone else with just a strong an opinion with just as strong a reason! Its hard for me to remember that sometimes, just know that no matter what you believe - you have that right and it doesnt make you any lesser a person than anyone else in this country! That what makes our country AWESOME!

In response to friends political comment

So I finally decided to start... I kinda feel this will be my daily diary, rant or rave about my life and our world as I see it.   Kinda cool realizations from my brain to yours. Hope you enjoy and if ya don't let me know too!

Her comment was:

"What the American people hope is for all of us, Democrats and Republicans, to get past our differences; to overcome the weight of our politics..while the people who sent us here have different backgrounds, stories, and beliefs, the anxieties they face are the same..the aspirations they hold are shared: a job that pays...; a chance to get ahead; and most of all, the ability to give their children a better life..."

My response:

Very true even though alot of my beliefs are more libertarian and I know many who don't agree - it feels great to know that people can respect each other different opinions. Because that is what makes our nation such a great nation - we can believe whatever we want to belief and not be persecuted or killed for it. As upset as I can get sometimes ... See Moreas I do have strong opinions on some things, I respect others who believe opposite for I am sure there are strong reasons they believe that way. After seeing soo many other countries not allow their people the fundamental right of the right to have your own beliefs, it makes me proud to be an American... wow I think I will repost this right now so everyone knows how much I love our country!

In response to friends poignant comments

Allison Lang Buechner In response to a friends very poignant comment about politics: Very true even though alot of my beliefs are more libertarian and I know many who don't agree - it feels great to know that people can respect each other different opinions. Because that is what makes our nation such a great nation - we can believe whateve...r we want to belief and not be persecuted or killed for it.

See More11 hours ago Only Friends · ·
Allison Lang Buechner
Allison Lang Buechner
continued... As upset as I can get sometimes as I do have strong opinions on some things, I respect others who believe opposite for I am sure there are strong reasons they believe that way. After seeing soo many other countries not allow their people the fundamental right of the right to have your own beliefs, it makes me proud to be an American...
11 hours ago ·
Allison Lang Buechner
Allison Lang Buechner
I hope you don't mind Amy but I loved your comment so I am reposting it for my friends. Here is her comment: "What the American people hope is for all of us, Democrats and Republicans, to get past our differences; to overcome the weight of our politics..while the people who sent us here have different backgrounds, stories, and beliefs, the ... See Moreanxieties they face are the same..the aspirations they hold are shared: a job that pays...; a chance to get ahead; and most of all, the ability to give their children a better life..."
11 hours ago ·
Amy England Smith
Amy England Smith
Don't mind at all...glad you agree;)

Scotts post reponses

Scott Buechner Our goverment at its best! What a joke!

Sun at 10:23pm via Mobile Web · ·
Jim Diveley
Jim Diveley
Just terrible!
Sun at 10:55pm
Aaron Gaghagen
Aaron Gaghagen
What happened? Did we start another war or something?
Yesterday at 1:01am
Jona Jones
Jona Jones
I personaly am ecstatic over this...Scottie...do you realize that I have 30,000 in health bills from my three day stint in the hospital when I was uninsured. If I would have had it, the costs would have been minimal. If almost every other country on earth can take care of their people, there is no reason the US can't. If it fails to do so, then it would truly be impossible to say that this is the best country to live in on earth.
Yesterday at 1:34am
Allison Lang Buechner
Allison Lang Buechner
Yes but you dont realize the consequences of letting the government making your healthcare decisions... like not letting you in the hosital when you need to or get the medicine you need because its not on the approved list... I dealt with a healthcare district run by the government and it was horrible - you DONT want that - you will have no ... See Moredecision in your care and if you even think insurance companies are bad the governement way is worse. Good luck getting to see see a dr for a sinus infection,etc... I have way beyond $30,000 in medical bils and I have insurance and have people calling me constantly to get that money. They cant make you pay if it is a public hospital. Also, if you call the hospital will work with you if you are in need. I am finally getting around to that and filling out papers to get my debt forgiven.

Just because youll have coverage doesnt mean its the miracle you think it is... it too will have major consequences as NOTHING is ever that easy! THere has to be something better they could have come up with after working in the insurance business for over 3 years there are soo many ways to reform it without the government running anything.

I hate seeing our government start to become a socialist or communist state where they start taking over everything and telling us what we can and cant do in most areas of our lives.. Look how many things our government has started takeing over in th past few years - that should scare EVERYONE this is supposed to be a free country not one that takes over everything.
9 hours ago ·
Aaron Gaghagen
Aaron Gaghagen
It's better to have corporations make our health care decisions?
9 hours ago
Jona Jones
Jona Jones
I just have a very hard time accepting the fact that SO many other countries including the UK, France, Korea, Canada etc. can provide coverage for each and EVERY citizen and we can't. I think THAT says a lot about our country. I think it is sad that, yes, there are people who end up dying because they don't have the coverage or they wouldn't ... See Morewish the bills upon their children or surviving spouses when they finally sucumb. It is sad to know that some people from the US will find any way to go to another country where they will be covered ( which is the case in the UK). If I wasn't educated on other countries (non-communist) that are successfull in providing for their citizens, then maybe I would think differently...But I am knowledgeable...Medicaid is a form of social medicine and noone makes a stink. I just want everyone covered. I think there are a ton of extremists out there that dish out A LOT of scare tactics. All we can do is try because one thing is certain...it isn't working the way it is now!
9 hours ago

Really Annoying Things To Do On An Elevator - FOR SHITS & GIGGLES on a nationwide stressful day no matter what side u r on :-)


1) CRACK open your briefcase or handbag, peer Inside and ask "Got enough air in there?"

2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.

3) WHEN arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open, then act as if you're embarrassed when they open themselves.

4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you Admiral.

5) MEOW occasionally.

6) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: "You're one of THEM" - and back
away slowly

7) SAY -DING at each floor.

8) SAY "I wonder what all these do?" And push all the red buttons.

9) MAKE explosion noises when anyone presses a button.

10) STARE, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce: "I have new socks on."

11) WHEN the elevator is silent, look around and ask: "Is that your beeper?"

12) TRY to make personal calls on the emergency phone.

13) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers: "This is my personal space."

14) WHEN there's only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder, then pretend it wasn't you.

15) PUSH the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.

16) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.

17) HOLD the doors open and say you're waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say "Hi Greg, How's your day been?"

18) DROP a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream: "That's mine!"

19) BRING a camera and take pictures of everyone in the lift.

20) PRETEND you're a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the Passengers.

21) SWAT at flies that don't exist.

22) CALL out "Group hug" then enforce it.


Sunday, March 21, 2010

Quotes

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."-Unknown “We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly”-Sam Keen from To Love and Be Loved "The spaces between your fingers were created so that... another's could fill them in."-Unknown

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SHIT,ALL DOOMED.'MEMBER WHAT U ASKED 4 WHEN STARTS TRICKLING 2 UR $! PROMISE U DONT WANT GOV'T N UR HEALTHCARE PERIOD U THINK UR CHOICES IN MEDS/MEDCARE IS SHIT NOW W/INS CO'S. HELLO GOVT HEALTHCARE IS SHITTIER-CANT YELL IT LOUD ENOUGH-ASK PEEPS ON GOVT HEALTHCARE-THEYRE ALWAYS PISSED CUZ THEY CANT GET ANYTHING THEY EV...ER NEED! YA & MED D WORKED OUT SO WELL RIGHT? HAVENT WE LEARNED FROM THAT?

9 things I hate about everyone

1. People who point at their wrist asking for the time... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their a** to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people say while watching a film, "did ya see that?" No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor!

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"... Didn't give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!! What can you do thats longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?" If the bus came, would I be standing here???

- Unknown

Saturday, March 20, 2010

random

DAMN GROUNDHOG... seriously all this snow mid-March?? and it wont stop till tomorrow.... arghhh guess its movie weekend &doin laundry

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Allison Lang Buechner only our dog would run all around our huge yard like a crazy person &not want come in but continue running & rolling as much as possible in snow TOTAL SPAZ DOG who even brought her frisbee in AFTER shaking snow allover

Sat at 4:47pm via Mobile Web Only Friends · ·
Allison Lang Buechner

Allison Lang Buechner MOVIE MARATHON... yay for OnDemand & not having to leave our bed :-) I even got Scott to watch "Why did I get Married" & "Diary of a Mad Black Woman" last night - kickass movies I love & he really liked them too! Mr Perry writes the most uplifting inspiring movies. On again tonight if you get a chance I promise you love em and laugh!

Sat at 3:05pm Only Friends · ·

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Allison Lang Buechner Happy to find my name on the unclaimed property list twice, sad when I looked up my old condo to find out the past 2 yrs they have sold for almost twice what I sold mine for... I knew they were going to start building condos downtown & prices would skyrocket but I was living in AZ & couldnt wait to sell.... now sad I did!

Sun at 11:49am Only Friends · ·
Allison Lang Buechner
Allison Lang Buechner
ALthough I can say I had the greatest and the worst memories from living there - overall very happy memories as I LOVED living downtown and walking everywhere - to the Myriad Bot Gardens to Bricktown & being able to just take a cab home for about $2... I miss those days sometimes - opening any of my windows to SOLD trees made me feel lke I lived in... See More a treehouse all summer - it was soo awesome! Now I wonder what the unclaimed property is as I have a REALLY REALLY weird tendancy to always come up with random money all the time when we least expect it! WHOOHOO
Sun at 11:53am ·
Allison Lang Buechner

Allison Lang Buechner luved being able to hold my baby all day watching movies & doing nothing else. weve done soo much every wknd its great to just be & to just be together doing nothing except for an amazing dinner i made: Scotts reaction: ill eat anything my wife makes me this is awesome!

WHEN LIFE GETS REALLY, REALLY HARD *kinda cool realizations from my brain to yours!

HARD when you have lost your home & have 2 rent because youll never qualify for a house for a few years with a shortsale. Got laid off in Oct with no paycheck, just got unemployment, HAVE NOTHING 2 fall back on 2 live on - no savings. BUT I am HAPPY Scott luvs job, depressed w/$9K teeth job because I have 2 keep 10yrold car would even kill for a 5 year old car but cant afford it. Most 16 yr olds have newer cars than mine.

THINK how bad others have it when you think your life is bad. We will never get r new dream home back that we poured our lives into for a year being built and it was only a 2000sqft house but we LOVED it and it had everything we LOVED in it, we will never make the $ my sis will as surgeon which makes me sad I never went to medical school but then glad I didnt since she works like 90-120 hrs a week, I would luv 2 stop worrying WHEN I check the mail. **BUT I will ALWAYS wake up 2 Scott w/smile no matter how hard life is - because thats all that is important - wekk that and our precious, adorable animals anyways :-)

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What this has taught me is I DON'T have to have the perfect home, the perfect car or the perfect job to make me happy.

It has taught me to try as hard as we can to save money even when we dont have any money to save so we arent in this situation again. It has taught me how to live alot more frugally than I ever have before - looking back at the hundreds of dollars a month we spent on going out to eat kills me.

There is no reason for us not to be following Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University - we have the entire kit and are just sitting on it. Cause I want to "live like noone else now so I can live like noone else later"

It has taught me we will probably NEVER be able to afford to build a house again or have a house over 2200sqft, but I will have to face this fact and move on and quit getting depressed about it. At least I have a really cute house even if it is a rental and even if we buy it as I love it.

I don't know if we will ever be able to afford to have college savings accounts for our future kids but we will try our hardest as we believe that education is REALLY important. Although I fgot scholarships to pay for my entire Freshman year so I am sure they will be able to too!

I still have no idea how we will ever be able to afford a 401k or an IRA and pay our bills but we will have to figure out a way to each year we dont start one I feel like we are losing tens of thousands of dollars and it eats away at me. I dont want to be like my parents who counted on oil and gas wells to be their retirement only to see that go to shambles and them have no retirement until my dad got his job like 12 years and almost everything goes to his retirement. It still breaks my heart that they had to go through that.

We may NEVER get to take a REAL honeymoon or a trip in the next few years but I am learning to deal with that too. We haven't exactly had a "normal" couple of years so how can I expect to have a "normal" honeymoon. I would rather save our money and take a trip all down the coast of Florida visiting familiy from Pensecola all the way to St Pete stopping to visit family all in between and getting to see the land my cousins and I still still own - and stop by my grandpas grave and our family cemetary. Maybe even swim in the Suwannee River with the manatee's that our land was on before we sold it to family.

Some people have it soo lucky with big homes, lots of trips each year to exotic locals, lots of savings and maybe one day that will be us too but for now I would just take getting a good job that makes me feel confident and important again, where we don't have to worry about bills each month.

We are lucky in that we don't have any credit cards except for the line of credit for my damn Lumineers I have to have. That has been our blessing not being in debt that way.

One day we may finally qualify to own a house again and buy this house and I will be ok with that because it is such a charming comfy house and everyone seems to love it. One day we will finally get that honeymoon on the beach even if its years from now.

One day I will finally be able to take these 5 huge diamonds out of my grandmas ring and put them in a more stable setting so no other diamonds fall out from being from the early 1800s the platinum is beginning to wear down between the diamonds, putting cubic zirconias in their place on my grams ring so I can still wear it without the fear of another diamond falling out - thats gonna be one kick ass ring with those big ole diamonds and I cant wait to design the mountings when we can afford to finally do this. It will be exciting to figure out how they will best be displayed as they are my inheritance and I want them to be on full display at all times so everyone can enjoy them as so many have throughout my family over the years.

My point is I have so many goals in life, but the only one I am so privileged to have is with Scott, I pray to God everyday for bringing us back together and making us such stronger individuals this time around. With him I will have a great life no matter what we do or dont have. Hopefullly we will have children we can instill this in as well. Because this is the point at which I think you appreciate life more - when you have almost nothing but you have family to help get you by. Going to Corpus Christie Catholic Church has really turned our lives around and brought us such hope and happiness that we had lost.

I am finally happy with myself and in that I have found strength and happiness that noone or nothing can ever give me besides God. Through God I can do all things and through Him I have found true happiness. the fact that I have Scott just completes my life. So I will take whatever God throws my way and look at it as being a reason God sent it to me and realize if we are struggling God has reason for it - we must learn from everything God gives us good and bad. The bad is what makes us stronger more compassionate individuals who really care about one another. It makes you realize how much you take for granted.

As my aunt reminded me recently "You have to be happy with yourself you have to be able to complete yourself without anybody else, because look what happened to me. And if that happened to you you have to know that you are strong enough to get through it and to be able to still be standing on your own two feet" She had married at 18, had 2 kids and when her youngest was 6 weeks old her husband was killed during a routine appendectomy from malpratice. So here she was at like 21 with 2 kids and the love of her life gone.

OK so now I'm rambling and need to get off here... I think maybe I should start checking into writing a book I write so damn much and have soo many words of wisdom - although you can say I have been through alot more hell in my life than most people my age so it just comes easy to meWHEN LIFE GETS R
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And these better be damn perfect, perfectly white teeth for what I'm paying and I swear if a single one of them gets a cavity behind it I'm gonna scream forever! I have temps in now and I can honestly say I NEVER smiled with my mouth open since I got braces in sixth grade because I hated my teeth soo much but now I have a huge smile on my face in ... See Moreevery picture, thats why I keep taking pics of myself... I cant believe how much weight I've lost thus changing my entire face and how great my temp teeth look as I my teeth to fill in the front space and made them bigger than before so I'd have a better smile than before!

I'll just keep thinking that when I see a kid with a new car drive by me "at least I have a HUGE beautiful smile... ya cant carry around a new car with ya everywhere ya go but I can sure as hell carry my gorgeous white smile with me forever... even if thats how long it takes me to pay them off :-)"

ANd I will find the kinda job I had at Caremark where I felt important & appreciated and felt that people really trusted and believed in the work I did each day. My last job was the most menial job a high school student could do it but I was told when offered the job I would be moved into act mgt position asap if I would take this position now, which never happened. I never felt important there, hell noone knew half the work I was doing there and I was working my ass off but they never knew it ever - I didn't go college and have this brain to not have it utilized to its potential so I have to find a job that will. Thats what mission is now!

Friday, March 19, 2010

Scotts closet & cleaning house

Allison Lang Buechner so it all started when i went to my hubbys closet & realized all my craft stuff was in boxes blocking all of it, broke my heart he never said anything. so i made that room soo clean, his face was soo priceless just now... thats love!! cleaning the rest of house was just extra!

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Allison Lang Buechner our house has been a zoo since all furniture is still in garage after painting, decided today to clean all day long!!!! im dead!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

more march 18 blogs snow

llison Lang Buechner Too bad our hammock is all tucked away in our HUGE storage shed or I'd be out basking in the WARM sun right now before the freeze arrives! Maybe Scott can reach it when he gets home or we can walk on down to the lake with Daisy for a while.. although she always scares the geese so maybe no Daisy this time so we can feed the geese!

March 18 at 3:54pm Only Friends · ·
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Allison Lang Buechner More snow is gonna suck... arghh!!! I woulda loved a weekenda at the zoo or a long walk around Lake Hefner this weekend! We have dozens of piences of furniture we still need to lacquer to be able to bring it in but cant do that in the cold, which mean all the stuff that is stacked throughout our house is gonna have to stay there... arghhH!!!

Name

Allison Lang Buechner I am now officially legally "Allison Nicole Lang Buechner" by Social Security, drivers license, health insurance, unemployment, Mercy Hospital, and by my Dr's office. finally done changing them all! I know I was a lil late but that was a HUGE pain in the ass, esp considering I never did change any of them the first ti...me Scott & I were married... maybe this is a sign of real permanency now all these years later!

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March 18 blogs

Allison Lang Buechner So we lazied out but almost done inventorying my machines to sell so I can finally start taking pics of them all in the lightbox Scott's borrowed wish the box was a little bigger so I could stick some fun stuff in there to take cool pics of hehe i need my own lightbox then Ill never stop taking pics but id drive everyone nuts with pics

March 18 at 8:58pm Only Friends · ·
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Allison Lang Buechner SERIOUSLY: Almost April + Snow = Freaking Unbelievable! Only in OK!!

HYSTERICAL STORY!!

A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom." With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands:

Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I've been finding real passion with Ahmed and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion Mom, I'm pregnant and Ahmed said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. Ahmed taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so Ahmed can get better; he sure deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm 15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'm sure we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grand children.

Your daughter, Judith

PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my report card that's in my desk center drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe for me to come home.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

St Pattys

Allison Lang Buechner Seeing everyone talk about green beer I 1st think 'Original' O'Connell's St Pattys Day back in college w/huge glass steins of green beer runnin around like fools not caring cuz I could walk home, sad location is forever gone. Then again so is all the drinking I used to do when I went from being "Lushy" to a practical t...eatotaler - freaking hysterical. I actually had 3 drinks at the concert last week & had them make em dbls so I was bombed & noone knew why as I only had 3 drinks :-) Its fun to go back to the old party Ally who has soo much fun! MEMORIES!

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love my hubby

Allison Lang Buechner I love that my husband will go to McD's everyday after work ust to get me 2 LRG sweet teas.... YUMMMMMYYYY!!!! Just because he knows how much I love them... when he gets home with them and I realize I have eaten anything all day long then I feel really odd, like my tea has replaced my meals!

March 17 blogs about Scotts job

Allison Lang Buechner Please pray that my husband can make it to Luther to shoot video without rebels taking him out along the way... hahaha much better than his friend in Uganda :-) We have such a great life here in the USA!!!

March 17 at 5:58pm Only Friends · ·
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Allison Lang Buechner Please pray or Scott's coworker (and his family here at home) who is on his way to Uganda for work right now.. and thank you God for not sending my husband instead because Uganda scares me too much and I think I would just worry the whole time!!